I’m actually really miserable most of the time and I do believe death would be better and easier in every way. I’m so sick of dealing with life at this point. Nothing ever goes right anymore. I want things the way the were in 2011. I want you back. I want my friends back. I want my brother back. I just want my fucking life back and that’ll never happen. So what the fuck is the point?
I want a relationship yet I have horrible trust issues and run away from commitment.
Oh and by the way..in the bible..
God killed close to 2,500,000 or maybe more people. Lucifer killed 10. I just want to get that out.
In my dream, you were the girl I loved for the first part. The body to body. But then you turned into the person you are now that I hate. But you broke down and said you were sorry and that you still loved me. I went to hug you and as soon as my arms touched yours I woke up. I spent the next few minutes looking for you and then wondering why you weren’t there only to realize it’s because of me. I tried going back to sleep so I could go back to you..